to answer everyone's questions.. hmm well I don't want to change the way I am about relationships at all.. However, I dont' really have ONE TYPE.. I honestly can find good in every boy I've dated.. my three serious relationships involved really nice boys.. but different from one another. I don't really have a type.. and I could envision making anything work with them. Also, since I've been sixteen, I had a serious relationship for two years.. then a few months off.. then another serious relationship then A MONTH off then Vinnie. Its not that I try to find someone, but they usually come about when I'm not looking, and well go on dates and the three i've been with the longest are the three that made it past the first few dates.
I always thought that love was less about finding the perfect person.. but finding a great person that you're ready and willing to "work" with.. however, I may be wrong.
I know my problem is that I seriously could picture myself in a relationship with any of my exboyfriends and I gave all i could.. to fix things, work things out etc.. while most of them.. scratch that all of them gave up.
its strange though.. one year into our relationship Vinnie asked me to marry him.. he wanted to get eloped before I went away for the summer to work on marthas vineyard.. I said no. MOstly cause I was 21 and I wanted a real wedding.. but he knew he was ready (this was not a formal engagement.. he just kinda threw it out there to test the waters).. and I was ready too, but I didn't want a rushed wedding.. so the summer went on and since his opinion has obviously changed immensely. Before he was ready to commit commit commit.. and then over the subsequent year.. I would mention it and it would be someday. However, I *thought* he was still committed because he did ask me to move in...
Anyways, its so strange how things change and how peoples minds change the way they do. Unfortunately, I'm the kinda person that loves with everything, and wants to fix everything, and hopefully someday someone will appreciate it.
It was really interesting to hear all your stories!