Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | A little 'Me' Update after absence

Hi all,
Well, I haven't posted in a little while so I thought I would just say Hi and give a little update since my dreadful doc experience.
I admit now, though wouldn't at the time, I sorta sat around in my own self-pity for a while. More and more bad news from home gave me a nice big helping of depression and for some reason, I can't stop sleeping. I used to be a total insomniac and was happy with 4 hours of sleep a night and now sleep from about 930 PM until 8 or 9, or even 10 in the morning, depending on when I have to work. My boyfriend is worried, but I will not go BACK to the doctors and I sorta like the sleep...
Working in a pub is pretty horrible, I never stop smelling of ciagarettes and beer, which is an odd experience when you neither smoke nor drink. The people I work with are nice. I have had to leave one shift (last night, at around 10 PM) because of tummy - was cramped up so badly I was starting to double over and told them. They only let me leave when they thought I was puking, oh well.
Mom wants me back in Canada to see dying relatives, boyfriend doesn't understand why I would go.. A lot of crying after given massive guilt trip by mother, and an even bigger one by boyfriend. Best friend has stood me up three times and no longer deserves 'best friend' title. Feel very alone.
Stomach has been.. good, then bad, then good, then bad.. Need to go back on hypno program, as I stopped last week as I was either at work or sleeping all the time. Also need to start taking Acadia again, got lazy with that too.
Tried to make ABD brownies for a BBQ, sent friend to get applesauce.. she thought it was for the meat and got the chunky kind with cider.. made it anyway, now have brownies with chunks of apple in them - interesting. Made turkey burgers at BBQ, were very yummy.
Was reminded by friend of a stupid thing I wrote when I was 12, and very sick, saying that if I still had stomach aches when I was 22 I would kill myself. Am 21 now, so darnit. Won't really kill myself of course, but what a depressing thought that ten years have passed and I had to leave work last night 'cause of a belly ache.
Well, thanks for reading. Just wanted to come back and chat some more, I kinda missed the company.
Hope you're all having a good day, tummy wise and otherwise,
--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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