Hey Everyone,
I'm so miserable right now! I'm having so much trouble the last few days with panic. Almost every day this week I had one or more encounters with someone who'd had or who's kids had a stomach bug. I had to work for a short time - 30 minutes - at someone's house who was sick on Thursday. And then yesterday 3 people (THREE!) told me all the details I didn't want to know! Do they somehow sense my fear ? Does everyone get these stories told to them in detail? I had to walk out of the room at one point with someone.
Its getting hard to keep the panic at bay. I just woke up with a cramp in my side and short of breath and nauseous. I'm drinking some instant ginger tea right now and hoping it eases up. I think it will, it feels like panic more than anything else.
Everyone, your support is SO appreciated, but please don't add any stories of a recent illness to this post, I can't bear to hear about any more right now. I've had to abandon reading replies to my own previous posts sometimes because people began to write about getting sick.
At some point I'll get sick and have to face this head on. I know why I'm so afraid, but I still can't shake the fear. Its better day to day, but when i get scared I'm still SCARED! Like I want to run and run. I'm going to go sit and meditate a while to help me get through this panic. At the moment, typing this seems to be stirring me up more. Thanks for listening everyone, it helps immensely to know I can vent here at times like this.
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