Hey all,
I'm writing to share a little bit of good and a little bad - I had such a good day today! Spent the entire day and part of the night at a music festival with my daughter. We had a blast. I felt very free of my normal obsessive thoughts over getting sick, and my stomach was fine all day in the hot sun. I felt really good. Sometimes I get a glimpse of what I could be like if I weren't phobic - maybe still with ibs but not obsessively worried all day long. Problem is, that being phobic, when I have these feelings of freedom from worry, I tend to freak out later, which may be where I'm at now. we stayed much later than planned which meant eating not so ibs-safe food from vendors. (which makes me nervous as well because of being phobic, I hate eating from food vendors- restaurants are tough enough for me to handle sometimes.)
Now its 145am and I can't sleep with what I have to admit feels like ibs. (Its truly hard for me to say to myself (as Aly posted) "its just ibs". Because I get panicked that it isn't ibs because of my phobia of throwing up. I spent the past 30 minutes scaring myself, but I'm coming around to the idea that this feels pretty familiarly in ibs territory (cramps, d, queasy, and a gurgling stomach with each inhalation is my most common combination) an am calming down a bit. Anyone else up tonight? I won't be sleeping for a while I don't think....
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