I was doing pretty well, considering. I slept in Saturday but got up and worked out 25 minutes on my elliptical than cleaned the house for about 1.5 hours, took a shower and went to the grocery store. I was exhausted by then so just made like a couch potato.
Sunday, I woke up really stiff and sore. I managed to give my two dogs a bath but that was it. My hands are terribly swollen and are SCREAMING in pain, my hips, chest and knees hurt and the rest of me aches, a lot.
I had been doing really good with my workouts, at least 3 times a week and I had gotten up to 30 minutes plus stretching and some hand weights. I set my clock to get up early today to workout and I was so exhausted. I got up to pee and hurt all over and climbed back in bed until I had to get up for work.
I feel like a failure. I am trying so hard to lose weight. My friend is getting married May 3 and I am in the wedding and have a bridesmaids dress to fit into, it didn't come in plus sizes.......
I was SO hopeful Fri and Sat that the infusion worked but now, I feel let down, empty, depressed and I want to cry. I know it can take several treatments and that I can't give up yet, I know that in my head but my heart isn't listening. I get another infusion a week from Thursday. They are so expensive, I hate to throw away money if they don't work but than again, I have no other option. I have exhausted all other treatments.
I am at work, luckily the boss is not in but since my hands have been hurting, I haven't done any filing and its overflowing the counter. My poor fingers are at least twice there normal size.
When will I catch a break? I feel like crying but the tears won't even come anymore, I think I used them all up.
-------------------- Taking it one day at a time.....
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