I have had my share of crying/hyperventilating attacks in the past. So don't feel like you're the only one. I have been seeing a psychologist for almost 2 years now, and that has been a HUGE help. She does cognitive behavoiral therapy. She has given lots of good techniques for reducing my anxiety...both before it starts and after it has already started. I would highly recommend it. I still have more anxiety than I would like...but no attacks or anything. Just every day kind of stuff. Someday I'm hoping to try an AD to get the last little bit under control. But I'm pregnant right now, so it's not an option. Have you tried keeping some kind of journal? That has been a big help for me. When I write things out it's easier to let them go. I often do that before a big event or trip. When I acknowledge my anxieties about going somewhere...and realize that a lot of it is out of my control, then I get more relaxed. No sense worrying about something I can't control anyway, right? Good luck with whatever you decide to try (except the pot).
-------------------- ~Mary
Had surgery for rectal prolapse in Sept. '06 and feeling good now! Loving life with our IVF miracle #1.