Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | OK - leery about posting this, but here it is....

For those of you who know me, I have removed my personal information for a reason. So, please address me as A or Yoda. Do not use my real name. I would hate for anyone who knows me where I live to figure this one out.

My husband is leaving me for another woman. He's been having an on-off affair for over a year and a half now. He told me the first 2 times, and then caught him the third time (back in Jan when I posted about a rough time). No matter what I say or do, he is determined to do this. The stupid thing is that ours was a good marriage, mostly happy, though my mental illnesses have put us few a few rough years recently, but I am totally stable now, thank you very much. I suffered over a year of postpartum depression (for months after each child), got diagnosed with OCD and Bipolar all overlapping within a 3 year timespan WHILE looking after babies. He still loves me, yet says he can't live without her (gag me!). It's totally insane and I have talked till I'm blue in the face but it's like talking to a brick wall. The good man I married is GONE. What's left is this evil, lying, manipulating, cheating DEVIL who would rather have a sl!! than me. Not that I have an ego or anything, but I am a good person, I like to believe.

I am doing really well - REALLY. My bipolar has not faltered during all this crap. I am NOT depressed, and have no intention of giving them the satisfaction of getting the better of me. And, yes, I have 2 small children, 3 and 5 years. I'm terrified for them - but I will be there for them no matter what. They can always count on me. So far, things are extremely civil and downright reasonable - my STBX is being very generous about helping me get set financially before the legal stuff comes into play. He has even bought some new appliances so that I don't worry about the old ones crapping out and my having to buy new.

I pray every day. Thanks to Rachel (Poochibelly) and Shan (Willow), I am hanging on to the idea that God has a plan and a path for me, and that all I need do is have faith and put one foot in front of the other. I am already to the point where I no longer hurt every second of the day. I am making changes for me -
Shelley - you'll be so proud! I'M TAKING KARATE!!!!!!! AND, I'm signing up for a "Biggest Loser" challenge at the gym. I've already lost 15 lbs, and have an amazing support network of fam and friends. Most are amazed at how well I am doing.
So, despite all that, I appreciate all the hugs and prayers possible. For all of you who have supported me through all this, my eternal love and thanks. I love you all!

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Formerly HanSolo. IBS, OCD, Bipolar, PTSD times 3.

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