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Hi guys,

Just wanted to update a little. So I am off work on a medical leave right now.. I was getting so anxious about getting to work every day and having so many attacks, then the Dicetel incident and going onto a reflux med. I have been off for one full week now, going to go back on Friday so it will be 2 weeks off. I feel bad about being off, but I didn't know what else to do.
My doctor told me that my reaction to Dicetel was "impossible" and totally opposite of what it should have been. I mentioned that some other people had the same reaction, and she told me that was ridiculous. She said that it wasn't the medication, but that it was me and I am "too emotional for any medications to work".

She also wasn't going to write me a note for taking time off work until I started crying. Now I find out I have to go back and have her fill out all these forms, and I am terrified she'll say "No" and I'll be 2 weeks without pay.

I am all moved into our new place now and it looks *awesome*. We have put so much work in (and close to $2K) and the building just sold and there are rumours of it being torn down. I am devestated as we will lose so much money and work and time and we'll have to move again, which will bring up all the problems I was having a couple of months ago (the dog, etc).
I am finding apartment living difficult as I am home alone a lot and I can hear every sound every time someone walks across the floor below us (we are on the top floor, it's only 3 stories). Every night, I just lie awake paranoid that someone is going to come to my door when I am alone.
Last night Adrian was home and he wanted to put in a ceiling fan we got, and I said "No" because it was late and I didn't want him making so much noise. He did anyway, and I asked him to stop twice. Then the lady from downstairs came up and was mad at us for making so much noise. I was so upset because I asked him not to, and now every time I hear a noise I think she is coming to yell at me.. even though I'm not doing anything. I don't know why, but I can't stop thinking about it and it's very upsetting to me.

Adrian has been working so hard, but he doesn't seem to get that I am on medical leave and gets irritated if I'm not working on the place 24/7 and we have been arguing a lot. Until now, we'd been getting along great for soooo long.. but I am so stressed lately that the tiniest thing just devestates me. Blah.

Anyway, that's that. Will try to take/post some pics soon of the new place. Wish me luck that we get to stay here, and everything calms down so my heart stops feeling like it is about to leap right out of my chest!

Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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