that the up's and down's you've had with your hormones are making this even more difficult. (Take PMS, and multiply that by 100) I know that's how emotional I was after my miscarriage.
Although you will always grieve for these babies you have lost, it will get better, Michele. Just grieve all you want to right now. This was a tremendous loss for you and Will, and you have a right to be angry and hurt.