Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | For everyone who responded, all your support...

really means the world to me. I think a lot of you understand what I mean when I say I feel so alone, and therefore how much it means to me to have you all to talk to.

I wanted to say that I don't have bad feelings towards Adrian, and I really don't want us to seperate. I know that everyone who is telling me to just leave is trying to be supportive, but I hope that you can support me if I can work things out with him.
I spoke to my best friend who just got back into town who has spent loads of time with Adrian (by himself and with me) and she was very supportive and said that us moving apart might be a good idea, but she doesn't think we should break up.

I know that there are two sides of every story, and I know that you guys only hear mine. The truth is, we have had some really amazing times that I haven't ever posted about. I feel like usually if I post about good stuff, there isn't really any interest (no offence meant here, I know that everyone only has so much time for the boards) so I have only really been posting when I "break down" and have nowhere else to go.

The bottom line for me is that the good times still outweigh the bad, and that if we can learn to communicate how we are feeling I would much rather give it a shot than just throw it away.
Being so sick this last few days has made me see that he really does do a lot for me that I am maybe taking for granted. He took me to the ER and only got two hours of sleep, and still took care of me the next day when he got home from work.

I hope that everyone can respect my point of view, because I do feel like even good relationships need work and that I only ever post about the bad times. It does hurt me when people say they think we should have split up a while ago, or something, but then I realise that I really haven't been fair in how much I talk about him and the good times we have.

I do appreciate all the support, like I said, but I feel like maybe I have set myself up for a fall by posting certain things and leaving others out. Instead of feeling comforted, I just feel worse so I think that I shouldn't be posting about this anymore to protect my own feelings.

I love you all very much, and thank you so much for the feedback and the nice words for those of you who have given them so many times.

--Steph

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