Stephie *hugs* I'm sorry you're hurting right now *more hugs*
I feel like Adrian needs to do some growing on his own. His on again--off again love for you is unfair. To both of you. (I must say thought is is easy for me to comment as I am not in the relatiosnhip and I only know what you say on the boards. And of course what you say is tampered by my own experiences in life anyway...). In other words...I agree with Tommy. You know in your heart what is best for you...I am simply mirroring what I "think" I am getting from you in this post and in the many overs over the many months we've both been posting here.
The bottom line, Steph, is that we all want YOU and Adrian to be happy.
I just want to say that we all love you (that is CLEAR ) and we are all here for you whatever you decide.
Sending you the clarity to know what is in your heart and the ability to follow it home...