Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Gah, things are so confusing

This is the first ultra serious relationship I have been in, so I really am confused.
I appreciate all the input and having the support when I don't have anyone else to go to.

Today I woke up crying, and he cuddled me and told me he'd work on things. I didn't believe it.
Then we took the dog for a long walk and it was snowing like CRAZY. We talked a lot (just about normal things, not relationship-y things) and played with the dogs and had a little snowball fight and it was like nothing bad had ever happened.
Then we came home and I had such a bad headache, and he rubbed my neck and head and got me tea. Then we had.. other things.. that was totally amazing.. which hasn't happened for ages.
He has hugged me constantly, tells me he wants to work it out. We had a nap together, he helped me make dinner... it is like a perfect day, other than these awful feelings deep down in my belly.
Speaking of bad feelings in my belly, since dinner I have gotten really pain and bloating and nauseous. About 10 minutes ago, I started throwing up. That along with the headache I've had for 2 days, and a stuffy nose I think I may have the flu or else a really bad stress reaction.

I HAVE to go to work tomorrow, so I hope this stops soon but I am in major pain.
Adrian has been super nice and sympathetic.

I just don't understand how things can get so confusing. I am hurting so badly, but then he is being so wonderful. Does that mean it will last? No, not necessarily but I can't chance walking away from someone I love this much who things can be this good with if it can work out.

Oh gah, I think I have to go throw up some more. This bloody sucks. What a sh!t weekend!!!!!

You guys are so great...

--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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