My psychiatrist is not calling me back. (I finally called her pager last night!! She was NOT happy...but I can't wait forever. Hubby felt atavan was working. So I kept leaving her messages about it. When I spoke to her last night all I mentioned was the neurontin and how I asked a phamacist about it and they said I can't be on neurontin and buspar at the same time. So I told her that forgetting the atavan cause she was so mad and now I'm afraid to call her cause she'll be like "You PAGED me last night about neurontin and you don't know if you want to take it??)
Hubby is so focused on his bike trip and work he has no clue how to be here for me.
His step mom comes Sunday.
I wish there were no such thing as b-days cause monday is gonna be AWFUL (my Hebrew b-day is next Wed the 1st day of hubby's bike trip).
I just want to crawl into a hole.
I'm so stressed.
I cannot decide what to do about meds. I have neurontin sitting on my desk. A common side effect is weight gain. It took me over SIX MONTHS to lose the weight from the elavil (I think that's what it was) from LAST FEBRUARY! I am finally starting to fit into old clothes again.
I'm terrified to swallow the stupid thing.
But I'm tired of living with this anxiety.
This is NOT a good time for me to make my own decisions.
But no one will make it with me.
I am in tears! I just feel so alone. I cannot make my own decisions very well when i am like this. I don't know what to do.
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PLEASE help...med decision making time
