Well, its been a difficults nights sleep...but I have woken with resolve. This proposition has really helped me deal upfront with issues within myself, and in that way I am looking at it as if it is a gift from God to help me ultimately be a better person. All the advice you all gave me was absolutely fantastic. Thank you all so much...I love this board.
My husband and I BOTH readily admit that we are very attracted to other people, but this is the first time a proposition has come our way. He is away on business till Friday which I stupidly mentioned to the Dr last night which is why I think he became so upfront about what he was willing to do, 'whenever I say I'm ready'.
This Dr is pretty famous in the area I live in and is one of the best at his work. He treats many people for free so its not for the sex. My IBS has been improving under him and I am not going to let this go..its been too many years of suffering. However, this is all about power. This has helped me stop being so in awe of him as my healer and made me see that he is just a man who has a sex drive and is quite inappropriate because he is my Dr...I just need to focus on getting healthy and not encouraging any more advances.
My husband and I have considered at times having other sexual relationships because our drives are so strong...but I could never deal with deceit, EVER. My husband is the best man I know. I hate throwing up, and just the proposition left me on the verge of retching with guilt and the sensation of dirtiness it left me. I have to be an honest person....it disturbs me that he does this behind is wifes back and is not honest about the fact that he wants an open marriage. That shows him as a liar. Being a person with a high sex drive, I understand the need deeply to have a lot of sex, but not at the expense of someone's honor and feelings. The nail was hit on the head when it was said that it should all be out in the open.
I am going back to him on Wednesday and am just not going to bring it up...if he does I will make myself clear. Its not easy, but I am determined.
Thank you all so much.
Thank you thank you thank you.
Print
Remind Me
Notify Moderator
|
Posts
To everybody
