We need to get together to cheer each other up! Try not to be to hard on Will. Guys are so different with handling this kind of thing. It's easier for them not to get emotinally involved because it is not their body going through everything. Doesn't make it easier but it is still fact. Is there anything you can do to try and take your mind off of this for awhile. I mean I know it will also be in the back of your mind but maybe like Ashley said a day of pampering or doing something a little special for you each day. Scrapbooking helps me to take my mind off of things sometimes. Big hugs and hang in there!