Alicia...you sound SO GOOD! You sound like you can set limits and boundaries. Like you are getting to know yourself in ways you never did...and liking it!
*crying* Will I ever have that? I feel so bad right now...like I'll never "get well". I'm in such a low...
Maybe I WILL journal. I've been a writer all my life. You know, you've seen my poetry. Maybe I should just write down how I feel, is that the idea? I'm not exactly sure what to write...sorry if that sounds stupid...but I'm just not sure I get it...
One thing I DO know...this is NOT real. It is an overwhelming sense of deep, deep darkness, blues, down-in-the-dumps...and nothing casued it. Well, I WAS high for days...so I guess I crashed?
Sorry for rambling...I guess I need to know I'm doing it right...or it's no good...