Alicia, I'm so glad you are feeling better! The new med must be working. (Can I ask what the doctor prescribed for you?)
As for the guilt thing, I went through that too. But this is nothing that you can help. You just have to accept that and move on. Your family needs you and loves you, no matter what.
Lately, I've been worried that my boys may develop this too. (they will both be off at college next year.) What if they get depressed or suicidal and don't reach out for help? I have talked to them about it, but I don't know that they understand how serious it can get so quickly. Ahhh! Something else for me to worry about.
We're just glad to have your smiling face back on the boards!