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I don't know how many of you remmber me telling you about mine and Dh friend who killed himself. I had been trying to find his parents for over a year and tonight I googled his mothers name and found her. Here is the real kick in the a** she was in a majior car wreck Nov 2004 and was released from hospital in march 2005. So I am guessing it was pretty bad. It was in a newspaper artical about a new road being put in because of her accident. I got their address from a VFW news letter.

I don't know if i should write them or not. I don't want to cause any more pain than these people have already been though. I don't know if a letter from me one of their sons bestfriends would be to much for them. Bring up to many memories ya know what I mean.

Plus I mean what do I hope to achive from this. I mean it isn't like it is going to bring him back to me. I am haveing a rough night with this. It was four years ago this oct and sometimes it still hurts like it happend yesterday (this is one of those nights) I have htis pic of him on our mantle and sometimes I think I should put it away because like tonight I just happend to look up and see and start balling. Sometimes I can look at and be fine.
I just want the impossable i want to ask how he is and for them to say he is fine. IT MAKES NO SENSE i mean I held his damn urn! Sorry I feel like there is never going to be a end to this because of the way he went. There will never be an answer to the one question in my head WHY. I will never hear him laugh again or see him smile or eat ice cream at midnight while he tells me his girl problems. I would give so much for one more chance to talk to him.

Anyway sorry for the ramble if you were me would write them and what the heck would you say!Thanks
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Heather7476

Edited by heather7476 (07/27/05 11:12 PM)

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