So sorry to hear you're going through this. I totally hear where you're coming from with medications, I'm super-sensitive to psychiatric medications and have had a heck of a time find something that works for me...I also seem to get the rare side effects and/or every possible side effect! It's really frustrating
Try and hang in there, maybe this new doc will really help. You have bi-polar right? So it would probably be bad to go off your meds altogether alothough I certainly understand the desire to. I'm currently being evaluated by a psychiatrist for the first time for what my GP thought was just generalized anxiety disorder, but now it looks like it could potentially be borderline personality disorder and/or somatization disorder and I'm worried about having to go on meds again.
Just a suggestion, I found a really good site for psychiatric medication info and support. I really like it, it's frank and the people really seem to know what they're talking about it. If you want to check it out it's www.crazymeds.org I remember reading a post where you said you didn't like people to refer to BP as "crazy" and I totally understand that...I think the title of the website is entirely in jest...I think it's actually run by someone with BP. Anyways, you may want to check it out...they also have a message board which is www.crazyboards.org with a specific forum for BP.