Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Everything is such a mess!!!

*cries*
Nothing is going right, I am going out of my mind.
I hadn't been able to sleep at all for two nights in a row because of how sore my tooth was getting, and then Adrian was mad at me for keeping him up at night(not on purpose!) and the pain was so bad I nearly drove myself to the ER two nights ago just to get something for the pain, since extra strength tylenols weren't doing the job.
I waited until morning, got an appointment with a specialist at 2:30 yesterday and then had to sit around and wait to have an Emergency Root Canal done!
I was so nervous I was shaking, I kept saying I didn't want it done after the last one went so badly. They had to give me 3 adavan under the tongue ones to calm me down before they could do it.
So that was last night.
My mouth is so, my body feels totally drained and loopy and I am just so angry.
My mom had to go in for a biopsy today on some breast lumps that they know are not cysts, but something worse and ended up not being able to do it. She came home covered in blood after they made some sort of mistake and she had to stay ages to get the bleeding to stop. She has to go see a surgeon now just to do the tests. She is obviously freaking out, my aunt was here and she was obviously upset and I just don't know what to think.
On top of the whole thing, Adrian has chosen today to start acting like an @$$ and has taken off someone with the dog and I don't know where he is. He is working nights right now, so won't leave for work until 10 but it's 7:30 now, and I imagine he'll come in right before he has to leave to avoid me.
He should be filling out his application forms for the police, but he just keeps making excuses and putting it off. Today I called him on it (NOT mean or anything!) I just said, "I think you should do your forms now that you have some time" (because his big excuse is that he has no time, working an 8 hour day) then he said he wanted to do laundry, which is a whole other issues (ARG!) and I said, "The laundry can wait a while, I really think you should do your forms" and then he glared at me and accused me of being a dictator!!
I just walked away and sat in my room to calm down, I punched the wall which I now realise there is a reason why I haven't done that until now because now my hand hurts.
Then I got a call saying my dental bill is actually NOT covered so I have two procedures to pay for, which would be about $2500 which I DO NOT HAVE.
Well, that got sorted out, they had my name wrong.
But then I got a letter saying that my application for "student borrowing" has been declined, so I have no way to pay for the courses I'm registered in now.

Why can't anything just go right???
I got an interview for a job I really want at the end of July, and I was so excited about it but then all this happened and I can't even get myself to smile about it.
It makes me realise how badly I want to stay with my therapist but I just can't afford it, especially now that I've been denied a loan.
And where the hell has he taken my dog??
--Steph

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~~I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell-I know right now you can't tell~~Matchbox 20
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