I'm sorry you are feeling so sad and hopeless Laura Sue. You're pain can be felt just by reading your post. I just feel so badly for you.
I know the world is a rough, judgemental, non-compassionate place filled with people who hate, hurt people, and make life difficult and overwhelming for those who are mentally ill and already hurting. But if you give up, they win. They want us to roll over and play dead and just shut up. The world is full of bullies who are horrible to others.
I am thankful that you are the loving, sensitive, open armed person that you are. You are full of love and empathy for others. I know you have given me so much just in the short time I have known you.
Yes, those of us who are more sensitive and play the peace maker do get hurt more often and more deeply than those who don't give a damn about others, family, nostalgia, and the bond between one human being and another. But would you really rather be any different? It would be a shame if you gave up your own sensitive personality for fear of getting hurt. Your sensistivity, your love and commitment to your family really is a special part of you. Yes, the consequence of this trait often brings pain and disappointment in how others react. You may feel abused or not appreciated. But I cannot imagine that you would be happy trying to be anything other than your authentic self.
Your compassion, acceptance, and love for all people are qualities that make you so special and loved. Please don't let anything or anyone take that away from you. The world would be losing one of the "good guys". We need as many people like you as we can get. Your uncle needed more people like you in this world.
I hope you find some peace with all that has happened.
Love to you, Laura Sue
-------------------- ~ Beth
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