Nelly, nelly - you SO should have told us earlier - but I also understand not wanting to - something similar happened at my job about 2 years ago and I ended up waitressing for 4 months - not a time I recall happily and not one that I enjoyed talking about at the time either! But anyways, I'm so glad you've found a way to relax here - I'm sure NY will be beautiful this time of year - just take your long johns! It won't be any warmer there than it is here and my goodness have we been shivering the last few days!! On the job thing, also, don't forget that I'm in this city too and I know people who work in your field (you're in event planning right?) - but you should send me a resume and I could ask around for you. Let me know and I'll give you my email if you're interested. For a word of encouragement - I will also tell you that when I did end up waitressing for the summer and half the fall of 2003, once I finally got back on my feet and into the job that I'm doing now, I've been extraordinarily happy with my position here - these things will work out in the end and you'll move on to something better - there's no other option for someone with as much tallent and determination as you have! All best - and let me know about the resume. Min