I have been abused. Verbally, emotionally, sexually.
It is NOT YOUR FAULT...HE is NOT your responsibility.
YOU are your responsibility.
I broke up with the last abusive guy I dated on the phone (before I met hubby). I called him and ended it. Religiously I never lived with this guy...but it HURT! I thought I might marry him one day...
This guy is NOT FOR YOU! And if you can't leave him for yourself...
Leave him for me.
It hurts me so much to know you are hurting.
You deserve a guy like my husband! He cooks when I can't. He BIKES to the store to get my meds (he has a vision prob and can't drive by himself...so when I can't even get out of bed...he goes WITHOUT me on his bike...even 45 mins there and back when we lived in NY). He is VERY supportive of me having a women's group in our home (I can't cause I'm sick atm...but I was supposed to and he encouraged it).
My husband may not buy me flowers or be a romatic-a-holic...but he LOVES me...ALL of me. the upset tummy me, the fibroed-out me, the crying me, the smiling me, the can't-get-out-of-bed me, the itchy me (rashes), etc.
YOU DESERVE SOMEONE LIKE THIS! and he IS out there...waiting for you to break up with the guy you're with now.
I am NOT one to be blunt...but I am deeply hurt by your post. I can relate to well to what you are going through.
NO ONE should go through this! Especially not YOU! *hugs*
the fact that you're afraid he won't let you leave is SCARY! A guy did that me to before...he's the one I broke up with on the phone. GET OUT OF THERE...you don't need this abuse!
He's a person. He doesn't have power over you. And don't give to him!
If you want to leave...leave.
E-mail me any time...I'm here for you!
I'm sorry you're going through this...but you're not alone.
Sara, take care of yourself! And keep positive...you're very strong! You CAN do this!
With love, prayers, strength, hugs, and an outreached hand,