I think that's what makes it so hard. If he was always a jerk it would be much easier. But you are right that "now and then" is still too much. It should be never!
I do think that possibly moving in with my co-worker might be ideal. She's a great gal. She's in a long distance relationship now and wants someone there since she's away so much. She might move to his city eventually if it gets more serious so it might not be a long term living situation for me. But it might make a good transition.
A worry of mine is what he'll do when I leave. Will he call me at work non-stop or send me a million emails? And worst yet, what if I never hear from him again? I think it would be so hard not having him in my life. I have lots of friends but not too many that I can call out of the blue to come over. I know when I'm single, I'll have to make an effort to make plans with people or I'll get so bored and lonely.
How did you meet Adam? Or how long were you single until you dated again? I think I'm one of those women who is afraid of being alone.
But honestly, the thought of dating again is kinda exciting. There's a cute tattooed guy in my yoga class.
Thanks so much Casey, it means the world to be able to talk about this, especially since you've been through it.