Aww Michele I don't even know what to say to make you feel better - I wish there was something I could do! You are such a strong person to go through all of this and you have every right to be upset. My friend with leukemia has to get those lumbar things done all the time in her spine and she says no matter what sort of sedation there is they hurt so unbelievably bad I feel so bad for you! I agree with Heather, your work can take a back seat because you are much more important right now and hopefully your hubby will take really good care of you! BIG BIG BIG BIG HUGS to you and I hope this nightmare is over asap and you can get back to trying for a baby!