Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Feeling helpless........sory I'm so needy these days...

sorry to complain some more...but i have to share this someone...

I'm really depressed. The Rheumy told me what he wanted me to take and NEVER CALLED IT IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My husband has no time to learn Torah (the most important thing to us in the world), he's feeling down, he works all day abnd comes home to make himself dinner sometimes, I just plain feel HOPELESS!

I'm crying and I can't stop. I am so all alone.

We have no money.

I have doc appointment severy day it seems.

My fam is coming and the house is a mess (spiders and bugs and all).

It's SO HARD!

I need hubby right now...but he dosn't have much t give...time mostly. It's not like I have close friends nearby.

Ok, hubby just came in and talked to me cause he cauht me crying. He said if G-d wanted him to learn Toraah...I wouldnt be sick, or something like that. If G-d wanted him to learn right now...He would not have made me sick OR He wuold have given my husband a higher paying job with less hours...you know?

I'm in a lot of pain...physically and emotionally at the moment, Crying helped...writing this out helps.....but what about the next time? I'm pretty upset with this doc (the Rheumy) and I plan to find a new one ASAP if possibl. It's so frustrating! Being in pain is hard on anyone...don't the docs know that?!

Ok...I'm goping in the other room and I'm gonna color (bought myself a Care Bear coloring book), drink some tea, try to relax, and take the med the GP presribed (GP told me not to take it tho and to take what Rheumy presribed...well, i'd love to, f the script ever showws up at my pharmacy!) GRRRR!

I need to calm doen...and I need some sleep. I overdid it today.

Thanks for listening.

Love,

Ruchie

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Formerly known as Ruchie

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