Still growling, and this happened last night ...
Okay, my b/f got into a huge screaming match with his mom last night (all about him going into his brother's room to borrow a camera without permission). They were yelling all through the house, and she was saying how she wasn't going to pay for his loans or school or anything anymore, and bla bla bla ...
I was trying to stay out of the way and everything, but we were trying to make dinner for ourselves and they were screaming at the top of their lungs anyway, so I couldn't help hearing everything. So what does she do when she feels like she isn't getting through to him? She says:
"Do you think I LIKE having boarders (meaning me, since as far as I know, I'm the only one) living here?!"
Excuse me?? You're going to bring me into this just because YOU can't control your son?? I was SO hurt last night because she has told me in the past that I'm her adopted daughter, so all I could do was cry on b/f's shoulder.
B/f doesn't think that she meant it, and maybe she didn't, but I can't forgive that. It's so immature to bring someone else into things just to be hurtful. Esp. when you're being loud enough for that someone to hear. My family would NEVER do that, but these people are so self-centered.
Why-oh-why must we inherit whole families when we find someone we want to marry??
I don't know what to do though. My daddy likes having me around, and says I can come home at any time. But I don't want to leave b/f 'cause 1) he's SO stressed out right now, and what kind of g/f would I be if I left him? and 2) I'd just be here all the time anyway, so nothing would really change (that's why I live here, 'cause I was here all the time).
I don't have a job and don't know how I'm going to be able to get one that can pay for an apt. since b/f can't help with bills til he's out of school ...
Sorry that this is so incredibly long, but I'm just so angry and frustrated ... I think I'm gonna' go make some rice and try to find a job in the classifieds
Thanks for listening everyone.
-------------------- ~*Amber*~
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