Self esteem very low today...
05/04/06 06:59 AM
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cailin
Reged: 08/12/04
Posts: 3563
Loc: Dublin, Ireland
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The post wedding pounds have caught up with me with avengance. Not the vanity pounds, I could cope with them. These ones are the "none of my clothes fit me" pounds and they are very unwelcome. The overindulgence on holiday last week must have been the final straw.
I was tried on clothes last night to figure out what to wear to the two parties that we have this weekend. A trousers that I bought before the wedding that I couldn't wear then as they were too loose on me have been deemed too tight to wear by my husband (he's right) So all that fits at the moment are my going out jeans which used to be soo loose, my fat jeans and my worksuits.
Feeling a bit desperate about it now, as I didn't take action when it was five pounds that were the issue and now it's more like 10.
Then I completely depressed myself by looking at photos of our wedding and last summer last night. (I had a fab figure)
The ones from the wedding in Poland last week were a real wake up call to me, I look bloated in some of them, not just tummy but all over. I don't want to be one of those girls who looks at their wedding photo and thinks I will never be that size again. I also know tha the reason that I lost so much weight that I was sick summer 2004, but I hadn't gained it all back and felt great.
I know that I am a healthy weight now and I'm in danger of getting weight-obsessed at this stage.
I am trying to lose the weight now to fit back into everything but I feel like such a failure for letting it pile on so quickly. I'm eating well and exercising lots.
The question is- I am a healthy weight now, it's just that my clothes don't fit. Should I just give in to the bigger size and feel good in new clothes that fit, thereby acknowledging in my head that I will never hit my old weight again or will I stick with it and use the old clothes as motivation to slim? Answers on a postcard asap!
Thanks for reading my vent.
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