Ugg...Awful day.
Breakfast--6:30-ish Oatmeal as usual, was running late though, and dashed to get something, came back to find the end of my oatmeal like concrete. So I only really had half the bowl.
My 9:00 snack was delayed. Ended up being in lab (no food or drink) so I didn't get to eat until nearly 11:30. Had a bit of pretzels and arrowroot cookies, but even that didn't sit well, as my stomach felt so empty and rubmly.
Lunch was supposed to be at 12:00 but I felt so awful. Did have the two of Shell's Deviled Eggs that I had brought because I didn't think they would keep much longer out of the frige.
Missed my 3:00 snack entire. Ate too much about 5:30. My stomach already felt awful, but somehow I convinced myself that it was because it was so empty. Which was probably truly, until I just kept eating until it hurt because it was too full. 6 Spinach Nuggets with Mayo, Club Sticks with Guacamole and Hummus, and 3 ADBs.
After that, I fell dead asleep. I don't even remember lying down....I just felt so awful by then.
Woke up around 7:30, felt like I "should" eat dinner. Had a some turkey in a tortilla. Should have been fine, I just probably didn't need the food. Followed that up with a handful of jelly beans and a piece of easter chocolate (although just a small piece, I broke my poor easter bunny into 15 pieces, and told myself I could have one per day).
Just an awful day. Decision making went wrong at every turn. I'm just so stressed, and the stress is building up, I feel like I'm at the breaking point. But, everyone around me is busy too. Maybe not quite as stressed, but hard to know, I haven't exactly shared my desperation either. People are too busy to talk even if they really do care. And I really hate complaining (hard to tell, I know! )
I'm at the breaking point. Deciding between sucking it up, and playing pretend for another day in misery, or just laying down and crying now.
*Sigh*
Ah, well. I guess we all have our days.
-------------------- ~~~Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.~~~
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