I know what you mean about missing your mum - when you're feeling down you just want to run to her for a big hug and some reassurance. Unfortunately mines at the other end of the country too, but a phone call always leaves me feeling a lot cheerier and she usually talks some sense into me too! I didn't even realise I was depressed, but having been diagnosed with an axiety disorder which has lead to depression I started taking anti-depressants. Although they have by no means provided a quick fix, they have settled things a little and my stomach is tons better - I have eaten things in the last few days that previously I could only dream of. There is hope out there, but it seems that a lot of it is a waiting game - doing what you can to get well, sticking to a safe diet and way of living and then just waiting for your mind and body to heal. I found that a sleep/mood/illness diary really helps to put things in perspective. For example if I have four hours on/off sleep and get really depressed about it, I can read my diary and see that two weeks ago I was lucky to get an hour. Progress is being made although it is slow and everyone has bad days. Take care and don't beat yourself up about not being able to do as much with your daughter - none of this is your fault and you will get better. Food wise I jazz things up with tons of fresh herbs like coriander, mint and basil. I also find that asian flavours are brilliant. Personally I found when I was depressed food stopped tasting of anything for a while so I had to make things really tasty to tempt my palate. There's nothing worse than tasteless fish and white rice when you're already feeling grotty! I also use loads of garlic and ginger as well as soy sauce and black beans.