Disaster zone
07/12/04 04:54 AM
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CathUK
Reged: 05/25/04
Posts: 373
Loc: Cambridge, UK
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I had always known my IBS was stress related, but recently it seems that my body has decided it is scared of everything. The last two nights I have had panic attacks all night and no sleep and I feel constantly sick. I have been to see a brilliant psychotherapist, who has been fantastic and he told me that my body is panicking and trying to gain control in the way it knows best – by making me ill so I don't do anything – because I am happy (which I am at last after an unhappy childhood). He says I should go to work and fight it, but I feel terrible. I know he is right – it's all in my mind, so I'm not complaining about him and I know I have to face my fears. Trouble is it's easier said than done when you are at work and the day stretches ahead of you. I'm really scared – I've started taking antidepressants, but they haven't kicked in yet and I've got lots of relaxation exercises to do. I've also done the hypno tapes. I just wish my appetite would come back, as I can't afford to lose any more weight. This has been a terrible year health wise (brilliant otherwise) and I've just had enough.
Sorry to rant, but I'm really, really scared … I never thought this would be me.
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