Please don't think that you 'gave this to yourself'. We have all developped this for similar underlying reasons: stress, anxiety, worry, negative thinking, etc. It just so happens that you manifested that through an eating disorder. We all have our outlets and ways of 'coping'. Some people drink, some gamble, some binge/purge/don't eat...and we do it because deep down (for some) we are unhappy. You didn't give it to yourself, you're body is telling you to stop and change your lifestyle through an altered eating habit and stress-relievers because it is not willing to put up with it anymore. Some could argue that IBS is a blessing in disguise (although i know it certainly does not feel like it!) because it's your body's way of telling you that you are impacting it in an unhealthful way and need to change or pay the price. Take courage, we're all in this together!