God, I feel for you. To be so young and plagued with this mess. I didn't get it until I was much older. I see numerous people have already posted with great advise, and for sure the suggestions in the book should help you. I've had this mess for over 10 yrs now. In the beginning I felt like you, even wanted to just die and wondered about living with a bag as a preferable way of life. I've known people who have had to go on the ostomy bag for a few mos after colon cancer and also had entire colons removed and believe me, living with no colon or on the bag is no picnic and you are unable to get the nutrients you need that way either & still have problems with food. So, don't give up yet is what I'm saying. This diet has made a world of difference to me, and I don't follow it 100% but what works for me. Come here and vent anytime you want, that is what we are here for.