Reged: 11/04/03
Posts: 5918
Loc: Northwest Washington State
"Bev, I just tried to cut-and-paste this on the board and my computer wouldn't let me....if you would do me the favor if your computer will let you and cut and paste this e-mail on the boards, I would REALLY appreciate it!
I TRULY didn't mean to worry anyone....I feel awful!
I think I've been trying to avoid things lately. I've ben going shopping A LOT (not with money, with my eyes) as an escape. I can't keep thinking and doing research about what's wrong...I need to LIVE!
I've also been trying to get an at-home job. I put an ad in the community classifieds here as a tutor. I hope I get some bites! I am also going to help with fundraising for a Charity org. by making phone calls at home.
I've been going through a LOT of emotions! And I don't know how to deal with them...
I AM doing Mike's hypno tapes....second go-around!
I feel like I'm doing all the right things.....
I am going to call a referral service today and make an appointment with an immunologist and an allergist. I hope that whoever I am referred to will spend time answering my questions...I've got lots! I still believe there is an underlying cause of all my body's malfunctions lately. I'm not a doc......but I'm an experienced patient! I truly feel it is my immune system gone crazy and the culprit is allergies.
I'm going to go ahead and post this on the boards....you convinced me! I'm not exactly sure why I felt I couldn't post....I DO know avoidance was a big part of it. I feel like the board is a place I go to face things.....
I am SO SORRY to everyone on the boards that was worried for me......that was NOT my intention! *tears welling up in my eyes* I don't know what I'm dealing with here.....but it's painful and scary! My hubby and I had a talk last night about why I'm overeating the past few months (since I've been rally sick). We realize it is emotional based. We DON'T know what to do about it. Some of the things causing me to eat emotionally are my illness...something I can't control. We're going to try to figure out what to do to get me help. A diet isn't the solution....that is just a "cure" of the symptom. Getting to the heart of the emotions I am dealing with and learning to cope with my personal situation is really what will help me get better!