Sherr, I just want to say I applaud your decision. The tapes are wonderful and you can always fill that prescription as you said.
My personal opinion on Paxil is that I would never take it. I take Prozac and klonopin for panic dissorder and depression and have several friends who took paxil as well as a son who took it. All of my frinds did well on paxil until they they tried to stop taking it. Then they all experienced withdrawl side effects ranging from severe dizzyness and headaches to attempted suicide. My son had no problem getting off it at all however and he had been on it for 2 or 3 years. I guess it all depends on the person but I've known so many people to have severe problems getting off of it that I personally wouldn't take the chance. This is just my personal opinion and everyone is different.