Venting....!
07/16/06 12:36 PM
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Reged: 02/09/04
Posts: 283
Loc: Phoenix, Arizona USA
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Three large bananas are about to be ripe enough for baking or squashing against a wall... so is a mango. For some odd reason, I keep coming up short on something. Everytime I try to eat as correctly as possible, I end up with wasted food because I'm missing some cooking ingredient or item that I don't have access to or money to buy. Which is odd, cuz each month I try to make sure I have these types of things so that I can take full advantage of this IBS diet. I'm so frustrated and upset and I feel horrible. I have spent all day and night yesterday in and out of the bathroom 5-15mins each trip; I mean they were good BMs, no C, no D, just decent, but annoying to have to get up from what I was doing twice every hour or so. Now today, I have gas, and pardon me (I'm not shy or grossed out easily, but sorry if I gross anyone else out), I have gass today and it stinks, and I would really like to try to have a BM before it turns into C because I've had the urgent need to go like NOW for the past two hours but three people and one freaking bathroom and a roomie who spends forever getting ready to go to work or anywhere...ugh...I seriously want to just make overripe banana and mango graffiti on something. I guess I'm angry too. Doing all I can here with what I have available to me and yet my hands are still tied and I'm still not getting anywhere. I have an hour here and there where I don't have problems, but basically since all this IBS stuff started, I have not consistently broken the cycle. It comes and goes. I can't afford 97% of the stuff I need to really make this diet complete and there's definitely no freaking room in the fridge for two different kinds of butter, two different kinds of mayo, etc. Already, there are THREE kinds of milk and my egg substitute alongside the real eggs. Luckily a lot of the red meat and pork I've been able to replace with turkey substitutions, so there's some saved space, but money is still an issue. I mean I'm trying to apply for Social Security because along with a bunch of other ailments, sometimes my IBS gets so bad, I can't work at all. I'm so upset and my stomach hurts so much I just want to scream. At least I know the Zelnorm is and has been helping, but when my last prescription runs out it'll cost me quite a bit because it's not covered by my medicaid. Sorry everyone, I'm just going to be quiet now otherwise I'll keep repeating myself and getting more and more upset. Part of the problem is that I haven't been able to sleep; less than 5hrs of sleep in 2 1/2 days isn't exactly good, and every time I did wake up, my stomach ached. About the only good thing is, my gut isn't twisting up. Thank you all for reading this. I appreciate everyone here. Sorry to vent all over you guys and gals.
-------------------- XOXO from lil' ol' me. (IBS-C, mood disorders, etc., etc.)
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