I understand and sympathize with you entirely. I was diagnosed with IBS about 7+yrs ago and since 1998, I have not had one meal without the IBS problems, constantly everyday for the past nearly 8 years. I am embarrassed to have a one track mind with the only topic being what can I eat. I spend most of my days home alone on my bed in some kind of pain. Talk about being worn out, I am sorry if you got the idea that I had only been at this for a month. I have been using the diet since September 2005. Granted that is only a few months but when you have gone for years with no meal that did not double you over in severe pain and last for hours, one meal that does not bother you is a miracle. Last summer I went through a period where I was subconsciously putting my affairs in order. I was making plans and telling my husband where everything was, in my subconscious mind I had given up. Thankfully something changed my mind and I stopped.
My therapist said that somewhere in my mind I had decided that if everyday was going to be so awful that I might as well just curl up and die. I don't know what anyone else here had experienced, but that is only a very small part of my experience.
I understand what you are going through as do all of the people here. I do not understand what made you think this way. Please explain how this all relates to does this diet really work? Has it not worked for you??
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