Thanks so much to all who replied! It's so nice to get advice from people who know what it's like, especially since I do feel so lost. All this can be so overwhelming. Last night i broke down out of sheer frustration and a sense of hopelessness, but y'all have made me feel alot better, like there light at the end of the tunnel. Patience is definitly not one fo my strongsuits , but I know it's important so I'm gonna work on that and your other suggestions. I really appreciate the advice and support- good luck to all of you!