Yesterday I wasn't my usual chipper self and then I felt yucky after noon and laid around. I thought I felt better after going to the bathroom. then while baking and doing dishes I had a strange panic attack. Today I woke up depressed still. I feel powerless and overwhelmed. I think it is job-related (see this thread for explanation). I haven't allowed myself to cry at all through this whole ordeal since I look so bad afterward, maybe I should just go ahead and do it. Then again maybe that won't help and this whole thing is going to get worse. DH thinks I will snap out of it like always, but I feel like it will continue when I start the new job and on and on. I am suspicious that it is because I never wanted to go back to having a bad employer or feel like I was doing something I really didn't feel comfortable with. Not that I always liked meter reading for my old boss (especially after dog attacks), but I knew it was a good situation. The new employer seems like a hand-pumping, fakey, pompous jerk and I don't want to work for another one of those.
Well, that is what i think is causing this blueness. I can't decide what I should do to make myself feel better. I have a pulled muscle and shouldn't exercise today but will tomorrow. I don't know if I should go out and be with friends today or stay home and read. I sure hope this goes away! (I am trying a cup of caffeinated tea to rev me up.)
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IBS-A for 20 years with terrible bloating and gas. On the diet since April 2004. Remember this from Heather's information pages:
"You absolutely must eat insoluble fiber foods, and as much as safely possible, but within the IBS dietary guidelines. Treat insoluble fiber foods with suitable caution, and you'll be able to enjoy a wide variety of them, in very healthy quantities, without problem." Please eat IF foods!
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It's finally hit me...depression
