Irritable Bowel Syndrome Message Boards | Annoyed and feeling hopeless!

Hello to everyone.. thanks for taking the time to read this.
I am 25 years old and have struggled with digestive issues for as long as I can remember. I frequently would get a very sharp and yucky pain in my lower left abdomen throughout my teenage years. Last summer, I began trying to figure out what my tummy's problem was! I saw a homeopathic doctor who "intuitvely" told me that I have Candida. I began a diet for it and took some powdered stuff, but I lost motivation when I spent a week in the desert at a festival. Anyway, at the end of last year I began to date someone, which hadn't occured in many years, and it brought up tons and tons of anxiety. I started eating less because I wasn't hungry, and I would feel like I was going to throw up sometimes. My digestion issues were clearly getting worse. Our relationship, while intense, only lasted 2 months, and afterwards I was very sad for a few months, going back and forth over many emotions about him. I wasn't hungry and was starting to loose weight. I'm 5'2, and for the past 4 years have been about 106 lbs. Suddenly I was 100 lbs and started to worry. I began obsessing over gaining weight, but I also was obsessed over what I put in my body, as I am a total health freak and began reading all sorts of websites about Candida and IBS diets (which contradict, have you guys notice that?). Pretty much since then I've become obsessed with wanting to eat things that won't upset my tummy. I have become more and more limited with what I eat, and my digestion issues have also become a lot worse, with diarhrea, loose stools, and tons of bloating. Although I was already feeling anxious and depressed, all of these digestion issues have made me even more so, and I freak out everytime my bowel movements feel abnormal. I know I have a problem and I don't know how to break this cycle. This is all really hard to live with, and I don't even want to go to work or see my friends. I am aware that the stress I am causing myself to have is making everything a lot worse, but I'm not sure how to stop it. I'm already seeing a therapist, doing yoga, I've seen doctors, have a lot of support from my friends and family... I don't know what else to do!! Has anyone felt similar things? Also, has anyone ever wondered if they have Candida and not IBS? Both have almost the same symptoms, and both are made worse by and/or can cause anxiety and depression. It's all very confusing and consuming and I think I just need to think about something else and distract myself and socialize, because that's what I used to do and I felt much much better!
PS- I got all kinds of digestive tests and everything's fine... which made me feel better for about a week then I started worrying again.
PPS - I had a bout of diahreah on thurs and fri mornings (i only get it in the mornings, does anyone else experience that?), after which I hardly ate anything on both days. Yesterday and today I'm having so much trouble getting food down, and last night I was up for hours with horrible bloating. HAs anyone had the epxerince of their stomach shrinking because they are afraid to eat because they don't want to get sick?? Then when you try to eat it hurts like hell?
THANKS FOR READING THIS ALL IF YOU HAVE!!

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