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#342099 - 02/14/09 12:30 AM
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hawkeye
Reged: 06/16/03
Posts: 705
Loc: NYC
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Hey Everyone,
I'm so miserable right now! I'm having so much trouble the last few days with panic. Almost every day this week I had one or more encounters with someone who'd had or who's kids had a stomach bug. I had to work for a short time - 30 minutes - at someone's house who was sick on Thursday. And then yesterday 3 people (THREE!) told me all the details I didn't want to know! Do they somehow sense my fear ? Does everyone get these stories told to them in detail? I had to walk out of the room at one point with someone.
Its getting hard to keep the panic at bay. I just woke up with a cramp in my side and short of breath and nauseous. I'm drinking some instant ginger tea right now and hoping it eases up. I think it will, it feels like panic more than anything else.
Everyone, your support is SO appreciated, but please don't add any stories of a recent illness to this post, I can't bear to hear about any more right now. I've had to abandon reading replies to my own previous posts sometimes because people began to write about getting sick.
At some point I'll get sick and have to face this head on. I know why I'm so afraid, but I still can't shake the fear. Its better day to day, but when i get scared I'm still SCARED! Like I want to run and run. I'm going to go sit and meditate a while to help me get through this panic. At the moment, typing this seems to be stirring me up more. Thanks for listening everyone, it helps immensely to know I can vent here at times like this.
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Ladies & gentlemen take my advice, pull down your pants and slide on the ice.
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hawkeye,
This must be a bad time of year for you. Everyone likes to talk about themselves getting sick, and this is the season for it.
Hang in there, buddy. In the meantime, follow your own advice in your signature! 
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Saul (IBS - D)
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I feel for you, I had the same experience this week, all the time resisting the urge to put my fingers in my ears and yelling, "LA LA LA LA LA!!!" (OK, what I really wanted to do was run out of the office screaming all the way home!) The last 2 days have been very tense for me - put a real damper on Valentines Day.
All I can say is time and distance from the fearful situation makes a difference. I'm much better today. Fortunately I have a long weekend so by Tues. it should hopefully be almost forgotten. Keep meditating and drinking tea, and it'll be over before you know it.
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IBS-A and GERD since 1983
Low FODMAP since 2012
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hawkeye,
I hope the meditation worked for you. I'm sending good thoughts your way.
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Janey
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Yes - meditation got me through the worst of it. THis is a hard time of year for me! I'm not the complete basket case I was last February. Just a partial basket case, so I guess thats progress.
Thanks for your concern everyone.
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Ladies & gentlemen take my advice, pull down your pants and slide on the ice.
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Re: up at 3am
#342244 - 02/17/09 07:39 PM
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Nelly
Reged: 08/06/04
Posts: 4381
Loc: Within stray mortar fire of DC
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Poor baby. Make it through March and there are clear skies ahead. Clear, blue skies, you on a warm, empty sand beach and the water full of sharks eating all the people who made fun of you in high school.
Oops, was that my fantasy? Don't know how that got in there...  
~nelly~ 
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Nelly I love getting your posts! Wish you'd been up at 3am the other day, I would have laughed hard enough to get me out of my panic. Actually the next day I found my way out in the worst way - talking to a friend with cancer. Puts my petty fears in perspective. In any case, those would be some fat sharks in my case. Also I've got a few former bosses, I'd like to toss into those waters while we're dreaming...
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Do you have a list???? I have a list!!!! I would only admit this here, lest the people in my life deem me a hopeless psychopath, but there are SEVERAL bosses, some horrible co-workers and some just plain old b#stard oxygen thieves I'd love to seen digested by Great Whites.
Ooooo. Just thinking about it. Makes me haaappy.
~nelly~ (Evil thoughts = Cheaper than therapy)
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No, but my therapist might be proud to know that I'm at the point that I definitely could come up with a list. Yes, a boss or 3, co-workers, a HS guidance counselor, a few classmates, the doc who gave me a colonoscopy as a kid completely awake no anasthetic - I'm hearing that jaws music.....
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I FORGOT THE DOCTORS!!!
And the list goes on...
~nelly~
P.S. (I hope to have restful sleep tonight...!)
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